I wish my legs were made of glass, so when I land they’d shatter into a million pieces. It’d be a beautiful spectacle for you all.
Everything I make I want to destroy, there’s so much I want to make. There's so much I want to make.
I wish you could hear, the sound of my scream, but my scream isn’t loud enough. I wish you could hear the sound of my breath, but your ear isn’t close enough.
I wish that my legs were made of glass, so when I land I'd shatter into a million pieces. It’d be my final show for you all.
I wish my arms were made of flames, so I could set off every wick in sight. Not knowing where it leads.
I wish the glass shards from my legs, covered the floor for you to all step on.
I see everything you make, I want to tear it to shreds. I want to tear myself to shreds.
I wish my body combusted, in a bright flash that would take out a city.
These aren’t thoughts. They’re just the things that my mind comes up with.
I wish you could hear the sound of my scream. But there’s no scream I can let out that loud.
Wish my legs would shatter to a million pieces that lay upon the ground. And I want you to pick them all up. It’d be my final performance.
I wish I’d become a massive blaze, that the entire universe would see.
I want to create something beautiful, and I want to destroy it.
I want to destroy everything I’ve ever made. I don’t know why I just do.
credits
from Restless Ego,
released March 26, 2021
Features drumming played by Ciaran Galati
In the music of Paul Jordan, digitally manipulated field recordings become striking electronic songs that feel eerie and surreal. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 7, 2020